Growing.....

Today was my second therapy session by myself.

I always knew that I wanted to speak with a psychologist or preacher prior to getting married but I never took the step because I was unsure of who exactly I needed to speak to.

Sharon had people over for dinner one night because Adam was in out of town from Texas and I ended up meeting Rae. I soon found out she was a spiritual psychologist and of course I was automatically drawn to her. We exchanged numbers and she had offered to help DJ and I. One thing she made very clear was that she could not solve any of mine or both our problems but she could help lead the way. I respected that statement and I talked to DJ about it.

One day I left her number for him because I had spoke to Rae and she had suggested we do a couple of sessions alone so I figured he should take the step to set up his own appointment.

I thought he was going to let me know when he was going to make the call but to my surprise he started seeing her before me! He took the step before me and I was the one who was talking and not walking and I am sure you know what I mean by that.

Obviously I realized not only does this man love me but he loves HIMSELF! It was so wonderful to know that he made the effort for US.

My first session with Ray was amazing. I felt like I was floating in the air when I finished my 4 hour session. To release all the feelings I had inside was the most wonderful and you can't forget beautiful thing that I have ever been through. Another wonderful feeling is to talk to someone that has no judgment on my thoughts or the things that have happened to me. It is one of the most freeing things I have been through and will continue to go through.

Today we focused on how I can change my overall feeling about myself and the things that I need to do to get to where I was to be. Don't get me wrong on this though, I know what I am doing in my life I just want to be the best person I can possibly be for everyone in my presence and most of all I HAVE to be my best for my child and future children. We must make the most of this thing we called life, right?


I felt the same way after I left my second session and I told Rae that I wished I could talk to her everyday, she is an amazing woman and has been on one hell of a journey herself. I have already begun to build up a soft spot for her in such a short amount of time due to her kindness and knowledge, I guess you could say that I love to be "schooled" on things by someone that has been through much more than me.

Life is what we make it. Every thought, every action is who we are and I am very excited for my next session. The next 8 months are going to be amazing!